The date and time it is minus December 29th, 1991 at approximately seven o'clock in the morning equals my age.
I have a wonderful boyfriend named Jeff who is my everything.
I have an obsession with Marilyn Manson, Motionless in White, astronomy, science in general, and Stephen Hawking.
I am a physics major, astronomy minor, and I play the piano.
I love heavy metal.
I'll beat you in chess.
My personality type is INTJ.
I'm a raw vegan and I don't have a religion.
I am very misanthropic.
I'm chronically anorexic.
I would waste time telling you about who I am, yet I'd rather you find out by yourself.
Just because someone is thinner than you are, doesn’t mean that they aren’t allowed to take pictures of themselves and upload them onto the internet just like everyone else. You’re responsible for what you let trigger you, and don’t say that you aren’t. If you’re too weak and let this girl trigger you because she’s boney, then that says something about your character and will power. Not hers. Get a live and stop being like all of these other whiney bitches who complain that underweight women such as Felice Fawn and myself shouldn’t be allowed to publicly post pictures of our bodies if we want to.
As all of you know, we are now approaching the most hectic time of the year. Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Years, etc. This time leaves a lot of us who suffer with eating disorders feeling awfully triggered, stressed out, and uncomfortable. The thought of eating all of these holiday meals, having people stare at you while you eat, being around friends or family who might say triggering things to you, etc. can all be horrendous experiences. To normal people, these holidays are rather exciting and enjoyable. To us, they’re hell. Trust me, you’re not alone. Throughout my recovery, I have found various ways in order to reduce the stress of these holidays. The following are some tips:
- Don’t get frustrated with yourself if you relapse. Relapses happen, and the only thing we can do is forgive ourselves, learn from them, and move on.
- Accept your own limitations. No one can force you to eat food that you’re uncomfortable with. I’m sure your family (if you were responsible enough to seek help for your illness) knows about your struggle and would rather put you at ease during the gathering rather than singling you out and forcing you to eat an obnoxious amount of food.
- Bring your own foods that you feel safe eating. Make enough for your family or friends. Share it.
- Give yourself at least an hour a day to do something positive and relaxing for yourself. Read a favorite book, watch a favorite show, get bundled up and take a walk, hang out with your boyfriend, take a nap, or whatever.
- Try to focus more on the family and friend aspect of this time of year instead of the food aspect. Talk to a relative whom you haven’t seen for a while about how their lives are going.
- Eat vegan. I have been vegetarian for 8 years, and a vegan for 3. Healthy vegan foods are filling and satisfying, and they don’t cause one to gain weight or bloat up. I’ve been able to maintain a very low weight for the past 3 years.
Anyways, I hope this helped a bit.
Different people with anorexia get triggered by different things. While some anorexics might get triggered by looking at pictures of very skinny women, I get triggered by pictures of curvy women. I simply don’t like the female body because of what it and the fat on it “symbolizes” to me. Because of this strong dislike, which I don’t know the cause of, I starve myself, and feel immensely guilty all of the time for eating. I don’t feel like being triggered online anymore, nor do I feel like I have to. If I unfollow you, it’s because I find your blog to be triggering to me, or I simply do not enjoy what you post. I apologize if you find me to be a bad person because I hate what the curves on a woman’s body looks like and, to me, represents, but I have a mental illness that I cannot help, and this is how my mind works. I am getting better rapidly over the months (I’m allowed to stay at an underweight weight, since for my bone structure and height, it is fine with regards to my body) and I don’t feel like letting something as silly as pictures online to ruin it.
Furthermore, just because I have a mental illness that makes me think curves aren’t enjoyable, or attractive, or whatever the fuck my illness tends to tell me, doesn’t make it true. It’s called an illness for a reason. If you’re a curvy woman, and love your body, I am happy for you, and I hope you continue to feel positive about yourself. Same goes to skinny women, average women, and muscular woman.
Thank you for understanding (if you do),
Sorry, but I get triggered by pictures of asses, breasts and huge thighs, since they disgust me and make me want to lose more weight, so if I unfollow you, that’s the reason.