The date and time it is minus December 29th, 1991 at approximately seven o'clock in the morning equals my age.
I have a wonderful boyfriend named Jeff who is my everything.
I have an obsession with Marilyn Manson, Motionless in White, astronomy, science in general, and Stephen Hawking.
I am a physics major, astronomy minor, and I play the piano.
I love heavy metal.
I'll beat you in chess.
My personality type is INTJ.
I'm a raw vegan and I don't have a religion.
I am very misanthropic.
I'm chronically anorexic.
I would waste time telling you about who I am, yet I'd rather you find out by yourself.
Here’s a word of advice. Go to the people who are getting the results and living the life that you want to get and lead. Never trust anyone who can’t provide you with cold hard evidence. You wouldn’t trust a fat motherfucker with diabetes, heart issues, who can’t run a goddamn mile without stoping, and sleeping issues to give you advice on how to live your life and treat your body, now would you? Always be skeptical, and search for truth. Not for what makes Mr. or Mrs. Brain feel better. It’s ALWAYS better to be punched in the face with the truth and learn how to handle the punches than to be caressed and hugged by a sweet sounding lie. If you’re ashamed of your lifestyle and you don’t like how you’re feeling, that’s your fault! Not anyone else’s! If you don’t do anything to change it or improve it, then you have no right to bitch and complain and I’m not going to feel sorry for you. You’re victimizing yourself. Don’t even try to lie and act like it’s the world or “society” that’s victimizing you.
And most of all, people, GROW THE FUCK UP!
My left rib pokes out and is uneven with my right side of my rib cage, I have a large masculine jaw, a “crimson chin”, a large long nose, ears that are pointy and stick out like elf ears, and I have an emaciated body, and I love everything about it. I think I’m beautiful and looking in the mirror makes me feel thrilled 99.9% of the time.
I wish others had the ability to see the “flaws” of their bodies as strengths and areas of “perfection” like I do. Once you stop listening to what others have to say/think and say “fuck it” and focus on being the best version of yourself that you can be, you truly see the beauty in who you really are.
Moreover, I’m sick of people gender-categorizing themselves. Like a real woman has to be this. A real man has to be that. Fuck that. A real HUMAN has to be themselves and who they feel they should be. All of us have “masculine” and “feminine” aspects of ourselves. Our reproductive organs don’t have the ability to determine what our personalities and actions should be like.
I don’t support war. I don’t support the killing or torturing of animals for my dietary, wardrobe, cosmetic, sporting, or entertainment needs/wants. I believe education should be easily accessible and available to everyone. I support both women and men having the right to do whatever they wish with their own bodies as long as it doesn’t physically harm anyone else. I think drugs should be legalized, which will definitely help the drug issue in this country. It’s the whole “daddy wont let me do it, so let’s rebel and do it anyway” mentality. If drugs were legalized, people would probably not find as much of a thrill of finding and partaking in those drugs, and we’d wind up with less adrenaline junkies in jail and seeking a thrill off of drugs. I believe we have too many people in prison. I believe that laws and authority figures are meant to be questioned and challenged instead of blindly accepted. I believe in the power and right of freedom of speech and expression. I believe in raising children with the ability to think for themselves. Etc.
If someone such as myself is deemed as “dangerous” or “not socially acceptable”, we truly live in an ignorant world.
Additionally, I look amazing naked. So why do I have to hide my wonderful body from my own eyes in public just because it isn’t socially acceptable? I mean seriously! I’d become a nudist if it wouldn’t hinder my ability to get a job as a research scientist in the future.
People complain that anorexics, such as myself, promote an unhealthy lifestyle, yet they idolize the other extreme and say that those women are idols because they embrace their unhealthy lifestyles. Personally, I don’t promote my unhealthy lifestyle. I’m going to therapy and trying to gain some sort of a life back, and I’m taking initiative and trying to fix my problem. The only thing I do promote is seeking professional help and I highly promote critical thinking and intelligence. Anyways, as far as the whole Adel situation goes, exercise is healthy. The human body is suppose to move. It’s not suppose to be forced into a state of stagnation. I understand loving to eat. Every human being loves to eat, and if they don’t, they’re simply lying, but you should train your body to love to eat the right kinds of foods such as fruits, veggies, nuts, and whole grains. Not greasy, chemically enhanced, processed foods and animal products.
Moreover, one body type and one type of beauty shouldn’t be found to be superior to another. Sure, I don’t like curves and find curvy women such as Marilyn Monroe, Dita Von Teese, Kim Kardashian and others with similar body types to not be so beautiful, and would rather look at pictures of women like Nicole Richie, Mary Kate Olsen, or Kiera Knightley, but I don’t think my ideal of beauty is “right for everyone” if that makes sense. Everyone should be entitled to find whatever they want to be beautiful. It’s not your job to tell others that they are right or wrong. This goes for tastes in men or women or whatever you fancy also.
Pro ana = Whinny girls (and some boys) between the sophomoric ages of approximately 13 to 17 who bitch about how every thin girl (even if she is healthy or naturally thin) is anorexic and is desperate for attention. Many “pro ana”s will say ridiculous things such as “OMG I only ate a salad for dinner! I’m so anorexic!” or “Yeah, I skipped lunch one day. I totally have an eating disorder!”. These girls need mental help for wanting to get attention in such a negative way and glamorizing a very deadly mental condition that can kill and severely damage a person who actually has it. “Pro ana”s typically don’t understand even the cause of anorexia, which is unknown, and blame it on the media, which in most cases, isn’t the cause.
Being anorexic= A person who truly suffers with anorexia can be of any age, race, and sex (although, most cases effect females), and feels traumatic mental pain everyday. An anorexic person will use food as a coping mechanism to feel like he or she has control in his or her life. The cause of anorexia is unknown, but it has been said to be genetic. A healthy woman can diet, stop, and resume with her life. An anorexic will diet, not be able to stop, and can eventually end her life. Most anorexics will go through great lengths in order to have their illness be unknown, and many wish they didn’t have it. Unfortunately, these people who do actually have the illness and need help aren’t taken that seriously due to stupid teenage girls who glamorize the illness, making having this illness look severely less serious.
If anything, thin women are the most oppressed in the United States. I’m sick of people asking me if I want to eat and saying that I should put some meat on my bones. I am sick of people forcing me to go to gatherings that revolve around food when I’d rather be doing my own thing. To me, food is just something I need to consume in order to survive. It isn’t this amazing experience to be feasted upon like a gluttonous idiot. If I don’t want to eat, don’t force me to. If I don’t want to be curvy or fat just like every other bitch in this fucking country, don’t tell me I should be. I do eat when I need to eat, I do get my periods (for those freaks who think I don’t), I am happy without feeling the need to shove greasy animal products down my face, and I am perfectly okay.
Body acceptance… more like “fat people are better than skinny people, and we need to start getting the skinny people shoved up with food so that they can be accepted into society.”
Fuck that. I’m in love with my body, and I worked hard for it. Love is the ability to choose to make a sacrifice. I made a hell of a lot of sacrifices for my body, and I sure as hell am going to enjoy the skinny body that I have. If you think I represent a bad body image to weak minded girls because I’m not curvy and proud of it, then that is yours and those weak minded girls’ problem. Not mine.
I WILL NEVER SURRENDER!!!!
I AM FREE!!!!
It’s not society’s fault you hate yourself. It’s your fault, and it will continue to be your fault until you decide to do something productive about it.
As soon as a single thought enters one’s brain, they’re taught to go straight to a brain numbing distraction that is produced by the media. People are taught to think of ignorant people who produce unintelligible garbage as heroes, such as Justin Bieber and those fat selfish Kardashian girls. Television has become a censored wasteland, music has became a talentless collaboration of computer sounds mixed in with “lyrics” of how everyone’s goal in life should be to bang bitches, get money, and buy expensive shit to prove how much of an individual you are, just like everyone else. This whole anti-bullying campaign as well as the pathetic body acceptance movement is dumbing us down by saying it’s okay to treat grown ups like children and baby everyone by telling them the lie that “everyone is special”… No, not everyone is fucking special or beautiful. The majority of people in this country, as well as the world, disgust me. There are very few people with whom I can actually hold an intelligent conversation with for longer than 5 fucking minutes! Also, “I’m offended” does not… I repeat DOES NOT… mean you won the argument! It means you lost because you’re so weak minded that you cannot control your emotional stature. I’ve lost hope for the human race a long time ago, and I’m only approximately 21 years of age. I may be misanthropic, but I think the human race deserves it. If one were to actually open their fucking eyes to the reality of this ridiculous planet filled with less than half minded idiots, they’ll see what I mean.
Maybe it’s because I actually suffer with the illness that I get very angry when I see people glamorizing and supporting something that almost killed me on multiple occasions and prevents me from living a healthy and happy life. I think the reason that glamorizing anorexia is socially acceptable is because people underestimate the seriousness of this disease, they find it to be laughable, they lack intelligence, and parents don’t raise their children well enough.
Also, I DON’T EVEN FUCKING WANT TO BE ANOREXIC!! I had this since I was about 10 years old, I am now approximately 21, and never in my life did I wake up and say “Hmm… You know what would be fucking wonderful, Jamie? Being anorexic. Yeah, I think I’m going to do that.” No. I always was very obsessional about health and being healthy. I think my anorexia was caused by genetics or something along those lines. A person who truly suffers with anorexia never even plans or wants to be anorexic. It just happens. The whole “wannabe anorexic” trend is beyond moronic and juvenile.
If you have a username such as anorexiaprincess, analover, ana4ever, or anything ridiculously childish, and fucking idiotic such as that, do me a favor, and don’t follow me. I don’t want anything to do with you.
Just like being fat is a decision. You have a choice to eat processed, hard to digest, unhealthy, animal based foods that make you fat. I’m thin, and I don’t consider it a privilege because I fucking worked for it. I made the decision to be thin. Also, I’m not ashamed to admit that I think appearances matter. If you want me to take you seriously, I want to see physical proof that you take yourself seriously. I don’t think a person who gorges on fatty foods and doesn’t take care of themselves takes themselves seriously, so it’s hypocritical, in my opinion, to expect me to take them seriously. I understand that thin people can be unhealthy as well, yet it seems more acceptable in society to call thin people, especially women, privileged, bitches, whores, sluts, anorexic, conceited, ugly, vain, etc. Gosh, no wonder why I’m so misanthropic. People are fucking idiots.