Goodbye 106 to 107 pounds. I don’t fucking care if I have to keep this a secret. I’m getting where I fucking want and I’m not letting anyone stop me.

A lot of people think someone who is underweight and a vegan, such as myself, are starving and dying, yet I’m actually swimming in nutrition because the foods I do eat are rich in valuable nutrients. However, a healthy weighted or overweighted person who lives on fast food, processed foods, and an animal product based diet is, literally, starving themselves to death and allowing their only one body to swim in a pool of fatty toxic garbage. So, it’s pretty much like starving and drowning at the same time. I know. What a wonderful combination.

mmmmmmm 

I seriously ate a ton of vegan ice cream, fruit, juice, nuts, and chips today and still weigh 106.8 pounds.

Having a fast metabolism that allows me to stay at a underweight weight without being unhealthy and being able to eat all of the vegan food I want is beautiful.

I love not feeling empty anymore. Now I’m not thin and anorexic. I’m thin and satisfied. Take that, eating disorder! :-)

I hate how all everyone talks about is food, and I have to come up with all of these bullshit excuses not to eat while everyone else is.

As all of you know, we are now approaching the most hectic time of the year. Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Years, etc. This time leaves a lot of us who suffer with eating disorders feeling awfully triggered, stressed out, and uncomfortable. The thought of eating all of these holiday meals, having people stare at you while you eat, being around friends or family who might say triggering things to you, etc. can all be horrendous experiences. To normal people, these holidays are rather exciting and enjoyable. To us, they’re hell. Trust me, you’re not alone. Throughout my recovery, I have found various ways in order to reduce the stress of these holidays. The following are some tips:

1. Don’t get frustrated with yourself if you relapse. Relapses happen, and the only thing we can do is forgive ourselves, learn from them, and move on.
2. Accept your own limitations. No one can force you to eat food that you’re uncomfortable with. I’m sure your family (if you were responsible enough to seek help for your illness) knows about your struggle and would rather put you at ease during the gathering rather than singling you out and forcing you to eat an obnoxious amount of food.
3. Bring your own foods that you feel safe eating. Make enough for your family or friends. Share it.
4. Give yourself at least an hour a day to do something positive and relaxing for yourself. Read a favorite book, watch a favorite show, get bundled up and take a walk, hang out with your boyfriend, take a nap, or whatever.
5. Try to focus more on the family and friend aspect of this time of year instead of the food aspect. Talk to a relative whom you haven’t seen for a while about how their lives are going.
6. Eat vegan. I have been vegetarian for 8 years, and a vegan for 3. Healthy vegan foods are filling and satisfying, and they don’t cause one to gain weight or bloat up. I’ve been able to maintain a very low weight for the past 3 years. 

Anyways, I hope this helped a bit.

And I’m a size 0. Damn, I am so happy with myself. :-) And I’ve been happy with myself for the past 2 months. Also, I’ve actually been eating and maintaining this amazing figure! I even faced my fears numerous times and went out with the guy I’m with to eat full meals at restaurants! Damn, I am pretty satisfied. :-) Anorexia, you are no longer tormenting me that much anymore. Thank you. :-)

For the first time in my life, I look into the mirror and see perfection, and it is beautiful.

I’m 5’7” and right now, I weigh 107.0 pounds and I have abs…. yeah… peanut butter makes you fat… suuuureeee. ;-) 

Eating dairy, meat, eggs, and processed chemicals makes you fat. Eating natural plant based body that is easily recognizable to the human body, is easy to digest, and has easily absorbable nutrients leaves you skinny and healthy. 

This is what a vegan flat stomach looks like. Abs are made mostly in the kitchen.

Starving yourself makes you fat. It freaks the body out and makes it retain everything you eat because it thinks that you’re going through a food scarcity problem, and that you need to hold onto any source of energy that your body can get. Your body, then, stores this energy as fat. Teaching your body that there is food around you, and eating little vegan meals or healthy vegan snacks that are easily digestible and easily recognizable to the human body will boost your metabolism, keep you feeling full and satisfied, while helping you get and keep skinny. 

Just like being fat is a decision. You have a choice to eat processed, hard to digest, unhealthy, animal based foods that make you fat. I’m thin, and I don’t consider it a privilege because I fucking worked for it. I made the decision to be thin. Also, I’m not ashamed to admit that I think appearances matter. If you want me to take you seriously, I want to see physical proof that you take yourself seriously. I don’t think a person who gorges on fatty foods and doesn’t take care of themselves takes themselves seriously, so it’s hypocritical, in my opinion, to expect me to take them seriously. I understand that thin people can be unhealthy as well, yet it seems more acceptable in society to call thin people, especially women, privileged, bitches, whores, sluts, anorexic, conceited, ugly, vain, etc. Gosh, no wonder why I’m so misanthropic. People are fucking idiots.