The date and time it is minus December 29th, 1991 at approximately seven o'clock in the morning equals my age.
I have a wonderful boyfriend named Jeff who is my everything.
I have an obsession with Marilyn Manson, Motionless in White, astronomy, science in general, and Stephen Hawking.
I am a physics major, astronomy minor, and I play the piano.
I love heavy metal.
I'll beat you in chess.
My personality type is INTJ.
I'm a raw vegan and I don't have a religion.
I am very misanthropic.
I'm straight edge. (Which means I don't do drugs or consume alcohol.)
I would waste time telling you about who I am, yet I'd rather you find out by yourself.
Which means that it’s an illness that never goes away… unfortunately, yet I am making the choice to fight on, and to live my life the best that I can.
Also, I’m not going to let my illness get in the way of me getting my PhD in the future. That dream and goal has kept me alive for the past 5 years, and I’m not letting go of it until I finally make it a reality.
Sadly, I will always be mentally sick, which disturbs me when I deeply think about it, but I am making the choice of not letting that fact completely destroy me.
To those of you who actually suffer from a mental illness,
I am here for you. I understand you. I want you to know that your illness does not define your self worth and your value as a human being. It isn’t your fault. Being mentally ill does not mean that your life will be less successful. It just means that you might have to fight a little (or a lot) harder in order to achieve your goals, which makes achieving them more rewarding.
Keep strong, and find a reason to push on.
(Future) Dr. Jamie
I got more than 100 messages from people telling me I’m arrogant, ugly, pathetic, idiotic, etc.
I got more than 50 messages from people telling me that I should kill myself.
I was told that I was going to be in chronic pain for the rest of my life.
I suffer with chronic anorexia and depression.
I suffer with severe panic attacks.
I’ve attempted suicide.
I went through and I’m going through more than what one can see from my surface.
I’m still standing and I will continue to stand until the day I die.
It’s not about how you fall, but about how you pick yourself up that determines your true character and your true self worth as a human being.
To all of you who are suffering, to all of you who have fallen, to all of you who are struggling, don’t you ever give up.
“No matter how bad life may seem, there’s always something one can do and succeed at.”- Stephen Hawking.