The date and time it is minus December 29th, 1991 at approximately seven o'clock in the morning equals my age.
I have a wonderful boyfriend named Jeff who is my everything.
I have an obsession with Marilyn Manson, Motionless in White, astronomy, science in general, and Stephen Hawking.
I am a physics major, astronomy minor, and I play the piano.
I love heavy metal.
I'll beat you in chess.
My personality type is INTJ.
I'm a raw vegan and I don't have a religion.
I am very misanthropic.
I'm straight edge. (Which means I don't do drugs or consume alcohol.)
I would waste time telling you about who I am, yet I'd rather you find out by yourself.
My left rib pokes out and is uneven with my right side of my rib cage, I have a large masculine jaw, a “crimson chin”, a large long nose, ears that are pointy and stick out like elf ears, and I have an emaciated body, and I love everything about it. I think I’m beautiful and looking in the mirror makes me feel thrilled 99.9% of the time.
I wish others had the ability to see the “flaws” of their bodies as strengths and areas of “perfection” like I do. Once you stop listening to what others have to say/think and say “fuck it” and focus on being the best version of yourself that you can be, you truly see the beauty in who you really are.
Moreover, I’m sick of people gender-categorizing themselves. Like a real woman has to be this. A real man has to be that. Fuck that. A real HUMAN has to be themselves and who they feel they should be. All of us have “masculine” and “feminine” aspects of ourselves. Our reproductive organs don’t have the ability to determine what our personalities and actions should be like.
People complain that anorexics, such as myself, promote an unhealthy lifestyle, yet they idolize the other extreme and say that those women are idols because they embrace their unhealthy lifestyles. Personally, I don’t promote my unhealthy lifestyle. I’m going to therapy and trying to gain some sort of a life back, and I’m taking initiative and trying to fix my problem. The only thing I do promote is seeking professional help and I highly promote critical thinking and intelligence. Anyways, as far as the whole Adel situation goes, exercise is healthy. The human body is suppose to move. It’s not suppose to be forced into a state of stagnation. I understand loving to eat. Every human being loves to eat, and if they don’t, they’re simply lying, but you should train your body to love to eat the right kinds of foods such as fruits, veggies, nuts, and whole grains. Not greasy, chemically enhanced, processed foods and animal products.
Moreover, one body type and one type of beauty shouldn’t be found to be superior to another. Sure, I don’t like curves and find curvy women such as Marilyn Monroe, Dita Von Teese, Kim Kardashian and others with similar body types to not be so beautiful, and would rather look at pictures of women like Nicole Richie, Mary Kate Olsen, or Kiera Knightley, but I don’t think my ideal of beauty is “right for everyone” if that makes sense. Everyone should be entitled to find whatever they want to be beautiful. It’s not your job to tell others that they are right or wrong. This goes for tastes in men or women or whatever you fancy also.
while the flowers grown outside build thick strong stems, grow pointy thorns, and sturdy roots and know how to face reality. These flowers grown outside may not be the most beautiful, and they might be covered with scars, but these are the flowers that survive and actually live.
Here’s to being a flower grown outside.
I may be damaged, but I know how to survive.
I will forever be envious of his intelligence.
